Saturday, December 05, 2009
I'm falling sick~ =( stomach flu...farking irritating! i cant sit still i cant stand still. i have to bend and adjust myself constantly..Zzz. I hope this gets better! just visited the doctor, and i have lots of medicine..But still feeling weird.
I dunno y nowadays i face the computer too long i will have headaches and i feel tired..Hmmm...Some side effects from too much computer!!!
Got nth much to blog about..Long hols is coming soon! =)
I hope to see u soon, and more often..
i miss u...=(
xoxo
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Clear off clear off clear off~ But! wat can u do without money on off days =( going broke soon..Zzzz army pay so little, enough to wipe backside only. LOL! Sian..Nowadays doing nth in camp, wake up eat, eat slp, eat slp eat slp gym..LOL! then wait for book out, wait for clear off..LOL! actually, this is the kind of life i wan in the NS! this is wat i call SIOK! HAHA! U don have to care abt anything! WOOOO!!!
Christmas is coming, lots of activity is up next..LOL! Most importantly is to have a nice jap dinner buffet with my wife..we're suppose to meet, but he has to deal with some stuffs in camp..So gonna meet other day~ Sad~ =( wanna go his condo and swim and gym..LOL! see some korean mums..DAM HOT! i have to say~ =X Chill~~
I think i should cut down on clubbing eh, u guys agree? haha..spending alot on drinks and stuffs! dam expensive! and now! i don have enough cash to buy clothes =( Sobs... Christmas is coming! and i need some new clothes! =X all need $ $ $ $ ! i think i'm a $_$ face now. HAHA! u know how much money i lost in NS! FARKING HELL!!! ITS FREAKING LOT! sad!!!
Alright, i think i shall blog till here~ more updates soon =)
Sometimes, i think people muz lose smth to feel it..rather than just saying it..To feel it then u'll learn to cherish it..to feel it then u'll have the feel of anxious and worry, feeling that its parting with u..leaving and nv return. that is the time where u try to grab it back, but its all gone like ashes..but u'll nv know if it will be gone =)
<3 kj =D
xoxo
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
well..i nv wanted it to come to this, really really nv wanted it to be like this. I'm sorry i have to be cruel..I have to do the right the thing, so that u can move on with your life and stop thinking bout me. I have to move on too..but i just hope that i dont, i wanna be with u..so so much. i nv felt this way before..I feel that the only way to stop this is to be mean and stand firm on wat the decision is..don be fickle minded anymore..If we wanna love, we just love as a couple..i dont wanna love as a friend. Coz u know that we both cant control it.. i feel that its even more hurtful than any other thing..To break the chain is the only way out for u and me..U muz bear this in mind..i don hate u or dislike u..i love u. But somehow, this is the way i would like to put things..Is either i love u this way or nv..I hope u can understand..and turning back is not impossible. anything is possible for me and u..Because we're made for each other..
Je'taime cheri...I feel so safe in your arms, nv felt safer than this..
xoxo
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Morning dudes~ had a hang over i guess. HAHA! its been a long long time =0
Happy birthday lionel!!! Finally 19..Hope u had a great time ytd alright~ i had great fun ytd. HAHA! but didn't play long enough!! =( sadd.....
Wats plan for today..Hmmmm, not very sure too..Shall see how later yeah~ =)
Feel so bored~ So boring nowadays~ Yawnnn...I miss u...='(
xoxo
Friday, November 13, 2009
Monday, November 09, 2009
Wat am i doing here at home on a monday night! First time not having any monday blues~Feeling great to be out. Totally superb! excellent to be outside folks..=)
Well...I didn't expect it to turn out this way, so negatively..So not wat i expected it to be, u are wat i wan..Wat i always wanted in a girl. It took me 6 years to find someone like u..So perfect to me, but i guess...Somehow, not everyone is perfect. Not everyone is flawless..Putting this to an end earlier will be a solution. But now isn't the bad time too, though i may feel its a bit too late..But nth is impossible. How i wish we could just be tgt and not think of anything else, the happy times.. Well, humans are selfish..wat can i say? =)
I love you...But i guess its time to forget and move on..No point waiting, there wont be any outcome. Since thinking far is wat u wan, and partly wat i wan too..but the future is already set to be wat we expected..I wanna love u for now and not think abt any other things that will make us feel upset or painful, at least we love each other so deeply before..I nv regret loving u =) the wonderful times we had tgt..It can nv be compared to the nearly 2 years R/s that i had before..
I know this whole thing sounds abit weird, i dunno wat i'm saying too..sigh..
I won't wanna waste my youth, same to u too..Life is still a long way to go..U'll definitely find another guy who will be better than me =) By the time u find him..don put in too much, u may end up regretting..In this R/s, I'm like a teacher to u..So far, u're an A1 student to me =) I love u...
Alright, enough of this and move on ZACK!! fark! life's like a bitch to me. shit...
Partying on friday night~~ Lionel's birthday celebration at THE ARENA! our home town =) Its time to unleash the other side of me kept inside for so long. So sorry to keep u waiting for so long..Its time u come out and have some fun...
xoxo
Monday, November 09, 2009
Friday, November 06, 2009
Blogger oh blogger~ 13 more mths till i end all these bullshit. Once and for all!! HAHA!! I'm out of wat to say here, dunno where to start. Wat to start on and how to start..
I think i'll start by telling a story..HAHA!
This guy..fell in love with this girl in first sight, but smth is holding him back from getting her. In the end, they ended up leaving each other without saying much..With a smile on both their faces, but deep down inside, its killing them..The guy didn't know the girl felt the same too.
As painful as it sounds like, she thought there wont be any chance to meet again..Crying subconsciously, unknowing that y she cried..feeling sad inside? but they didn't express their love to each other, and they didn't know that they are attracted to each other..Just a hi bye? i little chit chat?
A few days or weeks later, she went overseas for a mth or so..for holiday and visiting as well. When she returns..a msg with an unknown number texted her when she on her phone. To her surprise, its the guy that she tot she wont meet again. Feeling happy? feeling weird? feeling confuse? As for the guy, its the first msg he send to her. And it happen to be on an exact timing when the girl on her phone..
At the same time, the girl was thinking of giving up this guy and go for another one who was waiting for her a long time ago. Immediately, her feelings turned 100% to the unknown number..An urge in her heart to meet him again.
As for the guy..Finding a way to contact her, felt relief to see her reply..Sounds like its fated to be like this? HAHA! The guy was just seconds or mins away from losing her before he even have her.
In the end, they got together like wat a story should be..Felt so fortunate to have each another. Feeling so blessed to have each other..Living happily everyday, even though they don have each other by their sides everyday. But their hearts are connected from anywhere they are..
As time flies...problems arises, they found out that they are like diff ppl from diff world, jupiter and mars? diff religion, diff thinking diff beliefs. and diff attitude towards life..BUT, they both have a strong feeling that they were soulmates..If it wasn't for all these things, and things were to be simpler..Like wat the guy wanted it to be. Nth is impossible in this R/s. Its strong as u think it is..Love is selfish..The guy is selfish, the girl is selfish...In the end, separating is the only way to end the pain and confusion..
HAHA! how was the story? i read it on an article, just a rough summary of it..Alright! i gotta go now!! Time for me to Gym..Dion is running late as always. -.- ZZZZZZZZZ asshole!
<3 you.
xoxo
Friday, November 06, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Right, now is 9.08am...Can't slp much, feeling kinda bored and restless. So i'm here to blog. Hmmmm, getting bored of blogging sooon...Ytd went to botanic garden to have picnic with freckles.. HAHA! i think we spend around 2 hours in the car trying to find where is botanic garden. LOL! But! in the end we still find our way there..Phew~ Road directory is not easy to read man..
I made a beef sandwich, first time making sandwich..Tried smth new with it, in the end it taste not bad afterall =) and a ceasar salad to go along with it =P Stopped touching on my kitchen stuffs for around 10mths?! or even more! i still have a little touch on it. HAHA! well..i still can cook,hmmmm...wat can i say? LOL!
Initially i tot the botanic garden is just like some other garden, HAHA! nth special or nth much abt it..I didn't know they have receptionist there, LOL! like alot of facilities there, COOOOL!
We chew on some mint leafs and its bitter, expected it to be..LOL! just to get the taste of mint. i just spat it out after chewing afew times.. HAHA! i believe there are still many spices out there, just that we didn't see any..
Lots of squirrels there, when we walk in we saw one above us..Thinking whether will it drop a shit on our heads. LOL! then the place where we settle for picnic, squirrels are like everywhere. HAHA! keep having sounds on the trees..we thought they were monkeys..
Atmosphere ytd was so good =) windy and not sunny, haha. except that there are workers behind us planting grass..Zzzz they weren't there at first. but i dunno y suddenly they just pop up behind. Muz be some perverts..Zzzz farking hell, puch their chocolate face =X
Drive around the area at nassim road to see the beautiful bungalows and terrace houses. Some are just super beautiful! there is 2 houses that look like some roman palace. DAM NICE! the gate is like WOW! its this a royal palace? i think some royal brother lives in it. Super coool! they even have a guard house! HOLY!
Alright, shall blog till here..Didn't take pictures ytd, i guess we're just not photogenic. HAHA!
Sweetie, u look so pretty ytd..i love the way u are =) u're so sweet. HAHA!
I love u my beauty queen =) <3 <3 <3 <3
Sometimes i just hope u could drop by awhile, hmmmm..sometimes i dunno wat i wan from u..Everything seems not enough for me..maybe i'm thinking too much. Maybe i'm still not use to it..Hope everything will come straight in the end..
xoxo
Friday, October 23, 2009
